rouge hyperfixations

here is a list of things i currently wasted my time on. commonly known as projects?

Sidequests come quite naturally to me, but to connect them to a coherent pictue.
To develop a skillset that allows me to do cool and unique things and to not get lost between my hyperfixations.

Here I present to you my current progress:

1. this website
obviously this took a ridiculously long time to make. I am a network engineer and never coded with any of the required languages before. Overall it is quite fun and oddly addicting and I am kinda excited to see where it goes.
frontend developer roadmap
what do I want this to be? What is this for me?
  1. The ultimite way of self expression. This everything journal. With endless possibilities to structure, to create, to combine, to present. I can change things without leaving rubber marks.
  2. A portfolio containing everything I do, my flaws and my accomplishments.
  3. A way to keep track of myself. Of what I do, of what I would like to do, of what I already did. As a way to visualize where I am headed and where I came from.
  4. Finally, I want to prove, to myself and others, that coding is actually fun and a skill obtainable. It is nothing more and nothing less than a tool. It can be used for self expression, for art, for science, for war. It is a language like any other. It can create worlds like any other. It shapes the world around us maybe more than any other. It surrounds us, eventhough we cannot hear it, mostly we can not read it. We only see it's outcomes. We live in the world it creates but are afraid to speak it. Afraid to touch ist. We are afraid its grammar is to difficult, its vocabulary to vast, its realm not for our brains to understand and we leave it to the tech bros. We leave the creation of our lived reality to a bunch of nerds that somehow convinced us that this is too hard to understand, or, that it is boring, or that it is not relevant to us. That being bad at math in middle school means you should never dare to look at computer science and with first semester math they scare the last of the bold ones away. And I want to change that. From the bottom of my heart I want to change this because... what does that leads us to?
Neocities is fun but i found out quite quickly that there are limitations for my new found freedom
  1. TIME: Everything takes way longer than I think it will. Unfortunately my time is limited and I notice a lack of engagement in my other side quests (primarily arabic)
  2. No Backend: A lot of things are not because neocities does not offer a backend. For frontend developement its fun and I generally like the Idea but can imagine to move away from it in the future.
  3. Also because Neospace offers, as far as I know, no backup structure. I would have to backup all my files manually which I know I am not good at. If Neocities would disappear from one day to the other, this would propably all be gone.
2. System Administration
well atm thats kinda what keeps me food on the table.
this would be cool to get into :)
things I already do/did
  1. linux Server administration for the company I work at
  2. tbh its mostly setting up new servers and making sure everything is updated.
steps I want to take
  1. pluralsight course
  2. check out the tech lab around the corner
  3. get into the Linux community
Mostly I enjoy creating automations with powershell
what am I even doing with my life at this point
what am I even doing with my life at this point
what am I even doing with my life at this point
3. learning how to poledance
really fun but humbling
4. learning arabic
what am I even doing at this point.
5. creating a world of my own
add link to writings page
add link to gallery page
add link to tattoo gallery
5. figuring out if my life should have a meaning? figuring out if my current identity crisis is a mental disorder or full of philosophical revelations. I am afraid it is the former, but you know... whatever it is it keeps me running.
how do we live in a world where everything is build on other peoples exploitation? How do we party on a dying planet? How do we not drown in dread and how do we not exist in illusion?

I recently had a conversation with a friend who said that he wants to go on more side quests this year. If you are this friend, or someone else with a concerning lack of adhd brain power, view this as a list of suggestions.